Lust = I must have it at once!

"Spiritual lust causes me to demand an answer from God, instead of seeking God Himself who gives the answer."

This is a statement from my devotional, My Utmost for His Highest, which really made me stop and think. This whole month, my focus is on knowing God more and seeing His perspective in my daily life. One of the things that led me to this point was searching for answers, and one thing that has been going through my mind has been, "Stop asking God where you're going. Don't ask Him this entire month what is next or what He wants you to do, Morgan. Just stop and ask Him who He is. Focus on getting to know Him and having a relationship with Him."

So that original statement made me think again. I have really been looking hard for what God wants for my life... is it for me to go to seminary? be a journeyman? move up in my career at Youth Villages?
And honestly, I got tired of looking for answers. Because I'm not supposed to look for answers. What God wants is for me to look for Him.

I really want to look into this idea of "spiritual lust" a little more. But it's clear to me, after the third instance or so where this issue has come up, that God is telling me to stop searching for answers and worrying about all the things He's promised to take care of... and simply grow in my knowledge of and relationship with Him.